i'm not going to be a grumpy one, or the but i'm just too tired.
even a rainy night can't makes me smile. my chest is still hot but cold.
my brain feels like hanging on nowhere.
it's not really that hard to find something to make me smile,
and i prefer to shut my mouth, but not my fingers.
sometimes it's too tired to speak about everything in your head, those words are to hard  to be heard,
maybe the best way is just type those words.
people will read them with their own perception,
so they can't blame you by saying that you build their mind with your sad and raspy voice.